If you stand for nothing, you will fall for anything.

Well look at me, two post in one month - I am feeling like a rockstarr! (well not so much). I use to post 3 to 4 times a month - or even more. I have had alot of things on my mind, and have found that history shows that perhaps there are times when I should just not put it all out here. Even IF i really want too. So color me all grown up - or just taking my first class in maturity. In the mean time, we are STILL playing football which most of my family LUVS and I continue to curse. Ohhh curse you football - every freakn' Tuesday / Thursday night for two hours and then every darn Sunday for at least two hours. But god luv you my son, my son the athlete. Seriously, that damn kid has some skill, well as much as a 9yr old can have. There other moms will go' hey Michelle - THAT WAS YOUR KID' I find myself tearing up with joy. Then cursing the kid that tackles him. It is a group affair at football, because to be honest when they are all out there it is hard to tell them apart....

I cannot believe that we are in OCTOBER really folks where has the year gone? I missed blogging about my son's first day of school, Pypers first day at her new baby sitter, my work, my family etc. I feel like I have neglected you...and perhaps I have. There just don't seem to be enough hours in the day; and frankly when I get some down time this seems like the last place I want to spend my time. But then again I find myself wishing I would have written a few things here n' there. So here I am the second week of October, semi touching base :) I have photos galore at home, which I need to get on this site. Everyone is doing well, gearing up for fall and Halloween. We luv Halloween at my house. Pyper wakes up everyday asking why we have not had the party. For real girlfriend, it is not time. It seems like creativity is lacking in the depew household for Halloween - Rylan once again wants to be a football player and Pyper wants to wear the dress she wore last year. So ta...

Hello peeps, It is has as usual , been a while. I am not sure what has gotten into me and why I don't just take the time to put a few things out here. It looks like last time I wrote Lance was still out of town. Well since it has been almost a month since my last post, he has made it back safe n' sound. And n' true relationship form, we were fighting with in 24 hrs of his return. -Since his return we have been to the ER twice with my son. Who was as it turns out constipated. Which left me with a big WTF ? How can a 9 yr old be constipated? Well, apparently my 9 yr old was and it required two visits to ER to get some relief. - Next we decided over Labor Day to take a trip to Branson with the kids. We were totally winging this trip, so we left Saturday with no agenda and no idea what to do or how to do it. But we got there and we made the best of it. We went to Dixie Stampede and Silver Dollar City. So our Branson trip was like a mini-vacation. Which we all needed...

Well, Lance has been gone for for approx. 4 plus weeks. The first two weeks I was luving the single parent gig, well definitely enjoying my time alone in the house without the stress. Then reality kicked in and the taxi service, the maid, mom mode, working mode and everything in between. To say that I am worn out would be an understatement. We have football every Tues/Wed/ Thurs from 6-8pm, which requires that I leave work at 4 to get my kids from my sisters, go home let the dog out, get the gear, grab the cooler, grab some snacks, change my clothes and GO. Mind you just because it is over at 8pm does not mean that we get home anywhere close to 8. It is normally closer to 9pm. At which time both kids must take a shower and after the shower they want to eat. So I am making anything from ham n' eggs to tacos at 9ish at night. Then comes the bedtime adventure with Pyper. I am still working on putting her in her own big girl room. Making her go to sleep on her own. This my f...

Whirl-wind... Here i am just about two weeks into this single parent gig and well, not so bad. Each Sunday the kids n' I figure out what we want to eat for the week and we make it all up on Sunday. This past Sunday we made the following: taco meat sloppy joe grilled chicken ham for sandwiches Friday we are going order out!! So as we get in the groove of things, we seem to be finding our stride. Feed the dog and fish morning n' night. Take the dog for a walk everyday but Tues / Thursday - these are football days. Laundry IF i feel like it :) And travel on the weekends to the country. Now this one has me a little discombobulated. Last weekend we had to go to the country because Lance's dad turned 81 on Saturday. So in true, best DIL fashion I packed up the kids and we headed down to the country. We stopped by Dairy Queen to get a cake for grandpa. So two kids, a dog, luggage and now a cake. We get to Dairy Queen and of course my queen bee - Pyper has to pee. So I ta...

Somewhere between today and last week i found a few things: my smile, my laughter, my spirit. All wrapped up in one happy bundle stashed in a dark corner in the basement of my house. Okay, maybe not that dramatic..... Last week Lance got a call for work out of town, and I swear that he tried everything possible not to go; which really struck a cord with me. I was ready to give him a flying elbow. For real. Listen folks, it was work, it was out of town - which is not ideal; but is better then the current alternative. And he had said he was not going to take the job and quote 'because of football and practice.' I almost feel over. It is pee-wee football folks, hell I wouldn't care if it was college or the NFL - it is not paying the bills or making ends meet. But he was dead serious; and i was too. Get your butt on the road and get to work. Go get your man card back and turn in your Martha Stewart status. Oh yeah and the job was helping to build a Wal -mart, which tot...

Ever tried to walk thru life gracefully? With your head held high and just putting one foot in front of the other - without your feet turned outward like a penguin? Well, for the most part I do, shoulders square, head high and heel-toe, heel-toe. I have started reading an biography on Robin Givens, which is strange i never really gave her any though and well the book was free. Which as usual seems to be some of the best kept secrets. The book talks alot about things I will never understand, being black, father issues, and abuse. However there are a few things that seem to translate - her strong family ties, her belief in god and finding grace. And just because she believed in god does not equate to her feeling like god really believed in her or loved her unconditionally. As things came at me from all sides and I feel like I am swimming in turmoil and transition I am looking for my grace. Trying to maintain it through the laughter and tears. At this point I am so angry with Lance, it is...