Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Is it over YET (2008)

Just walking along, minding my own business when WHAM it hits me right in the face. I mean WHAM smack dab-in-the-middle-of-the-FACE.

For gosh-sakes people we only had one more day left until we ended this damn year called 2008, a year when I didn't think much more could happen.
Well, as usual I was wrong.

Hello, earth to Michelle - maybe you are not as flexible as you think you are. *You know you can no longer do a back bend or bring your toes to your nose.
An open mind, yeap that is what 2009 is going to require, flexibility, changes, hopefully income.

So I have kept everyone waiting long enough here is the scoop.
My husband quit his job yesterday. Oh, yeah - not fired: QUIT.
Stop take a second, grab right hand and pull mouth up off floor.
Stop the uncontrollable laughter that is ringing in my ears and be serious for one moment.
As in NO WORK, no JOB, and no GAME PLAN.
Oh, I see now - you have lost your 'effing mind!
Good times people, I am thrilled.....

Two days ago we were talking and he was telling me he was swamped at work, and had steady work until at least April or May. Hey, that is good news (right!). Two days ago I was beginning to feel like to recession would not hurt us too much. We are already cutting back. Full weeks of work for a man in construction / electrician is a good deal -esp these days.

Then two days later he walks into his office an quits. Well, actually - they call him and the other guys into the office. They are informing my husband and the crew that their boss was fired earlier that day.
So, since his boss was fired, Lance told them he would not work for anyone else.
*noble - yes. good move? um...remains to be seen.
Lance being the stand up worker that he is, actually went into work today to finish a job he was working on. He didn't want to leave it hanging or unfinished. He went by the office this morning to make sure it was okay. The president and VP were not in, so the number 3 guy gave him his phone back and let him finish out the day.
They were not going to fire him or anyone else.
But, no else there knows the communication side, which is the side Lance works on.

But what now?? No game plan, no back up job, just being noble.
Ahh, my night in shining armor - who has spent 2008 making us laugh, gasp, and now shocked.

We laughed when he called my boss a 'cocksucker', we gasped when he gave out his social and credit card over the phone, and now one day before the end of this 'effing year we are shocked.
For the life of me, I just didn't think he had it in him.
Well, take my hand honey - we will walk down this yellow brick road together. frick & frack; yin & yang; employed & unemployed, broke & bankrupt
Have an extra drink of champagne for me. --
Happy New Years, glad I could spend 2008 sharing my life with you.
Hugs all around. Cheers!

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

All Jacked Up...

Whew, it is over.....time to wipe sweat from brow and thank our lucky stars that we all survived. Even with all of the drama leading up to the holidays, they turned out WONDERFUL.
My family got together, my kids were great and Lance's dad came out to my mothers with us. My mother had close to 37 people in her house this weekend, it was SO nice to have everyone so close. We ate, drank, laughed and shared another holiday together.
Santa arrived at my mothers house around 7pm. All of the kids were SO excited, Pyper would not leave the guy alone, she was enamored by Santa.
Rylan on the other hand, walked up to me, pulled me down to his level and whispers in my ear 'mamma, I know that is my papa.'
I look shocked, then a big grin comes across my face and I respond ' then tell me why papa is standing behind me with a camera.'
Rylan's face was so surprised, he looked at my dad, back to santa - in a state of shock. um.
Maybe santa really does exist. *At least for this year.
This year my brother, sister and myself actually got to spend some time together. It was nice. I don't just mean staying for an hour or two, trying to keep up with our kids and being distracted. We spent most of Friday together at my mom/dad's house. We spent hours talking on the porch while the kids played. We re-lived our childhood, told stories of parties, sneaking out, etc. We had to laugh when my mother appeared so shocked by all of us. How quickly she forgets.

Friday night my mother kept all 9 kids, while the three of us went out together. We had plans on being home early , and just going for a few hours. Well that turned out to be all night. We went to two local bars, and by the second bar we were the life of the party. At the second bar my sister ended up trading shirts with one of the local guys (luckily she had on two shirts), the boys played darts, and some guy asked my sister to dance. Here is what he said to her ' hey, come on and let's dance. Go make your daddy proud.' ha!!
Everyone in the place either knows us, or they our parents.......only in our home down would someone say that. That night I laughed so hard I cried, we played a prank on Lance, and I made some girl at the bar jump so high she about peed' her pants.

I got Lance a GPS for Christmas, and he was stoked. He put the damn thing in my car, while we were in our small town. When we pulled up the second bar, he took it down off the windshield and hid it. That made me laugh, there is only one way, and one way out of town. Not too hard to get around, if anyone was going to steal anything it would be a gun from the gun rack. *luckily we don't have one of those in our car.
Lance was convinced that someone would take it.
When we were leaving me and Matt got in the front seat, I rolled the window down, thru crap all over the seat, and called Lance over to the car to tell him that someone broke our window and stole his GPS. He was livid. 'I told you Michelle, I TOLD you.'
Matthew and I were laughing too hard to even tell him it was all a joke.
My sister made her way to the car in her new shirt which stated 'I got All Jacked Up' in Ironton.
How appropriate.
On our way home, the discussion of going to taco bell started to happen. Which would all be well and good if there was one close - but there is NOT.
So being the most sober of all of us, I drove us home, and let Lance and Misty dream about eating tacos. As usual we woke up half the house upon our arrival - just like old times.
*If anyone got a photo of Matthew, me and Misty I would love a copy.

I have a ton of photos to share, which may take me a week, but I will get to them.
I hope everyone had a safe and happy holiday. I could not have asked for a better Christmas, and I am praying that 2009 is a better year than 2008.

Monday, December 22, 2008

Laughter - it helps

I hate Christmas.......I think it is too much fuss for the event.

I feel overwhelmed ever year - even thought I tell myself I won't get carried away, and I won't allow the pressure to happen again.

Well guess what, once again this year I failed.

I was luck enough to get a tree up, but we failed to put lights up outside.

We just could not get to it.

My son pointed it out to us once again last night "You know dad, we STILL dont' have lights outside."

Lance and shrugged ' yeah, we will try next year. This year we will drive around and look at everyone lights instead.'


We did begin to shop and wrap early, but once again I failed to get it all done.

And as of today (um the 22nd) I am STILL not done.


We wake up this morning, and find a wrapped gift on our door stoop from our neighbors.

Don't get me wrong, I understand it is a NICE gesture - it is a box of chocolates and a card.

But you and I both know it is a re-gifter. And I will gladly return the favor, by re-gifting the jelly set my boss got me.

I would prefer that they ate the chocolate, or saved their money.

I feel pressure to return the polite gesture.


Anyway, when I arrived at my office today, I received this...........


I am passing this on to you because it definitely works, and we could all use a little more calmness in our lives. By following simple advice heard on the Dr. Phil show, you too can find inner peace.

Dr. Phil proclaimed, 'The way to achieve inner peace is to finish all the things you have started and have never finished.'

So, I looked around my house to see all the things I started and hadn't finished, and before leaving the house this morning, I finished off a bottle of White Zinfandel, a bottle of Vodka, a package of Oreos, the remainder of an old Vicodin prescription, the rest of the cheesecake, some Doritos, and a box of chocolates. You have no idea how freaking good I feel right now!

Happy Holidays!

*this is NOT Me, but it is funny....enjoy.

Monday, December 15, 2008

Christmas photo - really?

Dear heavens I bet I have 40258354575673 photos of crap.......

We had pouting, we had crying, I tried to bribe her, we had milk, I even offered to paint nails. PLEASE just one freakn' photo. For christmas, I mean for gosh sakes I even got a tree. That's right see the tree in the back, I got a pre-lit one on sale (half off), and stuck that baby up in an hour. I am sprinting for the finish line and of course the kids won't cooperate. Well, Rylan will - he always does. So in true form Pyper will not.

Did I mention that I put the tree up and put ordnament's on it, well a few anyway. Only to have Miss Pyper take them all off, then she started to cry 'chsssmas was all gone. why mommy, why?'

I look at her like she has three heads, all the while a red star is attached to the leg of her pajamas. In my mind I am thinking 'hey crack-head, you are the reason Christmas is all gone. Leave them alone and it will look like Christmas.'

But rather I stated, 'you should probably put them back on the tree, so Christmas can come back.'

She woke up this morning and was upset the lights were off. She wanted them turned on RIGHT NOW. Well, that will get you NO WHERE with me in the morning. Needless to say we did not turn them on, we moved on to bigger and better obstacles.

Like trucking down 270 to West County to see the ENT. That is another story for another day. For new enjoy the few photos that look half way presentable of my kids and my tree.

*see self pat self on back. kudos to me for getting a damn tree and not stuffing Pyper in it like an ornament. Enjoy.

***One last thing 'Terra' ( gave me an award that I have not thanked her for, nor have I posted. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart. THANK YOU. My first award, and I am honored. I am not sure why anyone reads this, but thank you. I apologize for the delay in getting out there, I have been a bit lost lately.

Friday, December 12, 2008


I apologize in advance if this post rambles or just does not make sense.
I was home yesterday, lying on the couch and visiting a doctor. An hour later I left with 3 prescriptions - so today, I am loaded up on the drugs.

My head is hazy, my eyes are twitchy - but the green gunk is gone.
I did file with the EEOC, they send the complaint directly to the city attorney - I am waiting on a response. The EEOC told me it would be after the first of the year before any further action is taken. um....nothing like waiting.
In the mean time I have fired up my resume and started sending it out, pressed my suites, and found my high heels. I may need them in the near future.
I figure the IRS will always need people, even in a recession. I am not looking to be the boss, just some job security.

This weekend, hubby and I are going to knock out our x-mas shopping. Which should be interesting - we NEVER shop together for x-mas. This will be our first year. My sister is going to keep my kids sat day / night, so we have no excuse not to get it done. My hubby will be mindful of his spending this year, which is also very unlike him. Last night he was talking about being worrying about the state of the economy. I looked at him like he had 3 heads - 'who is this man?' The only thing he has ever worried about is if he has beer and a recliner.
Anyway, he stated 'we will have to watch our pennies.'
I breathed a sigh of relief. I am 'always watching our pennies.' Him um, not so much. At least this year we will be on the same page.
Plus I am hoping after a long day of shopping we can do dinner.
A dinner with no kids, one I can actually eat before it gets cold, and I don't have to share. I could not be more happy.
Plus I am sure that a drink with my medication will make me GREAT company.
Here's to hoping we have a good weekend.

BTW - I don't have a tree up, nor do we have lights up.
Yeap, we suck. Perhaps we will get some of that done this weekend.

My brother is up from Ar-Kansas (insert twang), so hopefully I will get the chance to see him and his kids as well. I am really looking forward to going to my parents for x-mas. I so need to the energy my family / friends provide.
Oh another thing.....did your kids stop believeing in santa? I 'think' this maybe my last year with Rylan (sad :(.....). Last Sat, Lance came home VERY proud of himself, he found a Wii, and picked it up. That is the BIG present for this year. Four days later while sitting at dinner Rylan states that he needs to start his list to santa. I ask him 'what are you going to ask for?'
He states 'well alot of things, but not a Wii.'
I look cross-eyes - 'uh, What?'
Rylan 'yeah, no Wii, I want a Red IPOD.'
Me ' REALLY. '
Rylan 'Yeah, a kid can change his mind you know. BTW, does Santa ask mom & dad if he can get their presents?'
Me - deer in headlights look. In the back of my mind I am thinking 'hell if I know.'
Lance 'No, Santa does not ask mom & dad, he gets the list and decides if you have been naughty or nice.'
Me - still speechless. Now thinking ' What in the hell was that?'
By this time Rylan has moved on and is now downstairs playing the playstation II.
I look at Lance baffled. Then I state 'well, that is just too damn bad.'
He keeps asking alot of questions about our involvements as parents and Santa. I think he 'knows' but isn't really sure. He is trying to trick us in to slipping - it just might work!
Pyper is going to be GREAT this year. She already loves seeing the x-mas lights, and loves every commerical that comes on the TV. She has started singing jingle bells, but in her world it is 'tinker bells.' She is a princess in the making.
I hope you all have a great weekend. I think we are expecting ice /sleet / snow next week - UGH.

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Any day now....

I am a pathetic mess these days.
I know it has taken me ForEver to post, part of me just didn't want to, and part of just couldn't. It seems I have so much to say, but alot of it just seemed like nonsense.
Work is work, at the moment. I am taking my time and trying to get all of my ducks in a row. This is a process, and maybe a LONG process.
*Nothing like fighting for your job in the middle of a damn recession.'s what I know.
Over the weekend my best childhood friend came over for a night with her two girls. Her drama made mine seem like a cake walk. Her life and struggles are hard for a person to imagine. We sat around the table Sat night and joked, 'we could make our millions by writing your life story.' I sat there at my table feeling really blessed and thankful for my family, my husband and my life. Even with all of the work crap, in the scope of things I am okay.
My girlfriend called me and asked if she could come over with her kids, just to get away. She is beyond broke, I told her if she could make it to my house I would give her gas money to get back. By the end of the visit I am not sure who needed it more - her or I. It was so darn good to see her again. It was so darn good to visit with someone who 'knew' me.
We laughed about where we were 15 yrs ago, and how we never thought our lives would be as they are today. We laughed about being in grade school, and being dorky, and boys, and nights out - all of the good stuff, I think I forgot. The small trip down memory lane was nice.
It is funny, my memory lane includes this best girlfriend and my husband. We all pretty much grew up together and here we are years later staring at ourselves in our 30's with kids running around. Who knew?
She came over because she needed me in ways that I could deliver, so I did. We thru my closet, went thru the kids clothes, my sister gave her clothes, I fed them and gave her some money and a hug. She looked at me and said 'what is all of this for?' My response 'because I can.'
She looked up at me 'I cannot t' I cut her off right there......'I think the polite thing to say is thank you.' She smiled and enough was said. I did not do it all to be thanked, I don't want to pat on the back. I just wanted to see my friend. I just wanted to hang around the table for hours with a drink or two and talk. We sat in the guest bed the next morning and drank our coffee, we put mattresses on the floor for the kids. We had a great big slumber party, and in the process I was relived to not think and just be. I should be thanking her........

In the mean time I have caught a cold, I feel like hell. I have not begun to x-mas shop, I don't have lights up, nor have I put up a tree. We have big plans this weekend to get most of it done - we will see. So any day now, things could start to look up. Any day now......

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

No going back.

My heart is heavy, my emotions are on overload.
Will this EVER stop?
Yesterday, I spoke with an employment law attorney.
Today, I spoke with the EEOC to file a complaint.
This afternoon, I am being spoken to by some upper mngt, so they can provide me with the level of discipline action that has been set in place. um....
Discipline for what? We will soon find out.
Funny how when the meeting happened to discuss 'me' I was not allowed to attend.

Funny how when a male counter part was spoken too and disciplined, he was allowed to attend, speak and defend himself.

Funny how a special meeting was held off site in order to speak with a another male counter part in order to discuss with him how inappropriate his language was towards women during his senior staff meetings. The held the special meeting in order to avoid having an open discussion.

Funny how is am being disciplined less than 60 days after a formal complaint was filed against one of the men speaking to me today. Which by the way, he is still employed, still working and no discipline has been set in place for him.
So funny I am laughing my ARSE OFF.

I am tried of this. I am exhausted, I am feeling beat down - perhaps that is the point.
I will fight, I have to...but it is taking its toll. God give help me to be strong, couragous and wise.

Monday, December 1, 2008

Home maybe???

Well, we made it back Sat night around 9pm.
Which is ideal, we like to have Sunday to relax and recover.

Our trip was 'fine', nothing to terrible to report.
On our way to the airport Pyper decided to puke all over the place, we had to pull over on the highway to change her, and attempt to clean up. YUCK.
We could not find a car-wash, so my car sat for 7 days with puke. GREAT!!
I threw away her travel outfit, which was covered in puke.
What were my options really? Keep it and travel with a plastic bag of puke for 5 hours to El Paso. um, NO.
Keep it all in the back of my car, in a plastic bag, with the gross car seat? um, NO.
The trash can seemed like the best option. The only good thing, she had plenty of changes of clothes in the car, a suitcase full of stuff.

So, I rode to El Paso smelling like kid vomit. Day 1, good times (NOT).

Day 2, while sitting Chili's having lunch Lance reached over to get Pyper something and knocked his full beer in my lap. Great! We were traveling to NM that day, so on day 2 I smelled like beer.

Well that about sums up my trip.
The highlight - the weather was nice, close to 70 every day.
I am glad to be home!!!!! More to come later.


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