Thursday, October 2, 2008

Leap of Faith.

There are alot of circumstances circling in my head, that I fail to share. But all of them weigh heavily on me, and effect the manner in which I function.

For a long time I have been allowing you to peer into my relationship with my ars*hole boss, well I have taken the steps necessary to bring formal action against him. This decision was not taken lightly, and now that i have opened the flood gates I must walk in, grab the life raft and hope that it does not get a hole and sink.

Two days ago I met with the new Mayor off site to disclose the degree of anger, erratic behavior, extreme emotions that my boss displays. My boss for the most part has avoided me, mainly because I fought back. I got back in his face, I ignored him, I walked away from him, and I told him I would sue him. But on the flip side, he turned his anger and terrible management style on other employees.

It is my job as a manager to protect those employees as well. As side from my own personal experiences with this man, I have counted at least 10 other people, who have been subject to this man and is tactics. These people are CRYING out for help. They are stopping aldermen in the grocery stores to tell them their stories, they are finding aldermen while they are on their daily walks to explain the extreme angry they have been subject to. They are crying at the coffee pot, speaking to the Chief of Police. They are even telling the City Attorney, personally. So tell me, why is NO ONE doing anything?? I have had more than enough.

One of the aldermen told me that the staff person 'asked me not to tell.'

What a bullsh*t response. These employees said please don't tell, of course they did. They are in fear of losing their job, or being punished.
*But on the flip side, the sought you out. They told you their story of mistreatment, they are desperate for a change and you think because they 'asked' you not to tell that you don't have an obligation to protect them. Hey, idiot, YOU HAVE AN OBLIGATION!

I am beyond done. And I am going to push them to make a change.

This pushing could cost me my job, no one likes to be challenged. But then again, we cannot allow this man to be responsible for 75 full time employees and treat people in the manner in which he does. There are laws and organizations that protect us, if you fail too.

I went to the Mayor in an effort to 'follow' the chain of command. To allow the process the opportunity to address the issue first. I don't have much faith in the process, I have seen it fall apart before. I have seen the powers to be sweep it under the rug, turn a blind eye, or claim ignorance. NO MORE. It is time to address the issue. I have the EEOC and Labor Dept on speed dial. I have shared my own personal discrimination with an off-site attorney.

My breaking point, is that it is no longer about me. Aside from that it is getting worse. His anger and aggression is getting worse. I cannot live with myself if I don't protect the hourly employees, if I don't push the board to protect the employees. I just wonder how they can live with themselves, because I believe they would continue to let it happen, because it is easier than addressing the situation. Shame on them.

This leap of faith may cost me my job.
*What is new.
I know I have said that before, and it sucks that in my two years at this work place I am constantly worrying about whether or not I will lose my job. I just cannot understand how in today's society they are able to tolerate such a Hitler style of management. Such an abusive style of management.

Don't get me wrong, I can tolerate 'bad days', yelling, disagreements...this is way beyond that. And I think majority of us fear that this man will snap in the near future. What then?

I am not out to be a trend setter, to make an example. But I do have to live with myself, and attempt to protect myself. I just have been given the task of trying to protect the entire workforce as well. What a large load to carry.

I am not sure if I feel better or worse for getting the wheels rolling. The pit in the bottom of my stomach feels larger today, the lump in my throat has moved up. Sleepless nights and gray hair are sneaking up on me. I will never tell the people that I am trying to protect how much I am going out on a limb for them, I just hope that we will all get some relief. I just hope that I don't make matters worse.

Keeping my fingers crossed that it is time for Karma to give this man a good swift kick in the behind.


A Buns Life said...

I feel sick and nervous for you....I'll be thinking about you all. Good for you for being the strong one and willing to stick up for everyone. I can't say that I would have the balls to do the's good to know that there are still people like you out there in the world. :) thank you!!

Terra said...

I wish you tons of luck, and am very proud of you. People like you keep us all where we need to be, and inspire us to stick our necks out for the good of all...

Farrell said...

Good luck, hun! Sending you a hug of strength...

Michelle said...

Thank you all so much for your support. I am sick to my stomach.

A Buns Life said...

Are you doing ok? Has shit hit the fan??


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